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Getting to the Green Side...

Getting to the Green Side...

Nicola R.N.
Mom-spiration

I put down my pen over a year ago and couldn’t pick it up again until recently. Writing would mean thinking about and processing my emotions and for a while it was just too tough. It has been a difficult year and I have found my resilience is not what it used to be. But somehow here I am, getting to the green side of the grass, healing and making it through the throes of motherhood.

Today I Fell Apart...

Today I Fell Apart...

Nicola R.N.
Mom-spiration

Today I fell apart. After several months of “holding it together” I was reduced to a weeping, mess of tears as I held my sweet, sleeping 19 month old son in my arms. As he rested comfortably against my chest, a deep sadness came over me. Next week begins another period of trial for our family. It seems like we are about to relive some of the worst nightmares of our past.

Bringing Baby Home

Bringing Baby Home

Nicola R.N.
Mom-spiration

One year ago today I brought my baby home for the first time. It was a blissfully happy day that I had dreamed of for many months. There were moments when I doubted that it would ever happen, but it finally came.

As Long as it's Healthy...

As Long as it's Healthy...

Nicola R.N.
Mom-spiration

"As long as it's healthy"... A term used by many a pregnant mom, daddy-to-be, grandma-to-be and even random stranger. I myself have used this term many times without a second thought. But I must admit, that these once harmless words now sting just a little bit. 

A Letter to New Dads from New Moms

A Letter to New Dads from New Moms

Nicola R.N.
Mom-spiration

Dear New Dad,

I love you. I love the way our baby’s face lights up when you come home from work. I love the giggles that fill our house when you two play together. But I want you to know that this mom thing is harder than I ever thought and sometimes I need your help with a few things.

The Perfect Saturday Morning!

The Perfect Saturday Morning!

Nicola R.N.
Mom-spiration

I have to shout this one from the rooftops as i’m not sure if this anomaly will ever happen again! We just had the perfect Saturday morning! It was the kind of Saturday morning that little girls dream of when they think of what their families will be like one day.

A Broken Heart Heals Fast

A Broken Heart Heals Fast

Nicola R.N.
Mom-spiration

This was it. They unplugged my baby from all of the wires he had been connected to for months and put him in my arms. A part of me wanted to just clutch him tightly and run right out of there. I wished that I could just take him home, but we weren’t there yet. He needed open heart surgery. 

"Happy Ending" Envy

"Happy Ending" Envy

Nicola R.N.
Mom-spiration

It is a heart wrenching thing to leave the hospital without your baby. After a 9 day stay in the hospital, it was time to go home. But my baby was staying behind. At just 2.5lbs and attached to a multitude of wires and cables, he would remain in the NICU for a long time to come.

Doctor Office Blues

Doctor Office Blues

Nicola R.N.
Mom-spiration

Not many parents take their kid to the doctor as much as I do. In addition to the regular pediatrician well visits, we see a cardiologist, gastroenterologist and pulmonologist almost every month. That means an appointment almost every week.

One Grateful Mom!

One Grateful Mom!

Nicola R.N.
Mom-spiration

I had a pregnancy that one could only describe as a nightmare. When I think back on it now,i’m not sure how I got through it. It must have been God, as only a higher power could help someone through such trauma. I must admit, i’m terrified of ever getting pregnant again even though I love my little nugget more than anything in the world.